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Twitter: @zorra130
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Webstore: AlopexApothecary
20. SLC. Avis enthusiast, naturalist, and ceramicist.
I'm weary and guarded, but I have a big heart.
Lesser Goldfinch Visitation. Warm Evening. Airon. Airoff. Clean House. Fresh Air. Fresh Blooms. Lacking. Victoria's Secret. Floorset. Now I Ain't Sayin' She A Gold Digger. Winding Down. Drip Sweat. Spring Flowers. Sugar Baby. Penny-less Purchase. Lime Green. Breaking The Ice. Goodbye Marilyn. Framed Poorwill. New Greenery. Finally For Myself. Human Shell. Consumed By Lies. I'm Already In Next Year. Hazel And Olive. Scraping Change. Forgotten Flexibility. Zumba. The Stress In The Move. Nude Nails. Hand On Hand. A Year Behind Me. Connections To The Past. Night Walks. Forever Grieving (z). Summer Mornings' Humidity. The Smell Of My Childhood. Everyone Changes.
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Something Needs To Change. Awaiting Roadtrip. Morning Tea. Dog At Your Feet. Barnless Owl. No Trust. Nowhere Feels Like Home. Assembly Line. Disorder. Savannah. Losing My Mind. Dropped Classes. Apothecary. Skull Fascination. Gone Girl. Nightly Bubble Bath. Wild Rats. New Friends. Party Pool. 150z. With All My Heart. Hard Times. Pool Party. Cage Modifications. Great Saltair. Bird Heads. Rat Photoshoot. Roommates. Couch Moving Snackers. Victorian Mirror. Summer Night Walks. Snackers. New Flynn En' Route. Dream Catcher Supplies. Dwindling Cash. Daily Strawberry Growth. Hikes In The Hills. Specimens. Florescent Fangs. Food Fights. Vials Slowly Filling. Too Many Pills. Planning Hikes. Coming Out Of Hiding. Freedom. Vials. [5]. Snuggling Up With A Heating Pad. Roommates. Vials. Creamies. Flushed Teeth. The Worst Pain. New Cases. Fighting To Keep Your Eyes Open. Vials. Lovers As Best Friends. Drug Runs. Days Off. Owl Butterfly. Catching Up. Twisted In The Sheets. Comfort In Our Growth. Combining. Valium. Sprouting. O.P.I. Grandmother's Watch. Vintage Jewels. Heirlooms. Arrowheads. Collections. Milkshakes All Day Long. Hydrocodone. The Drowsiest Of All. Anticipation. Losing Wisdom. Application. Revealed Past. Dane. Water Resistant. Losing Wisdom. The Last Stand. Caligo Teucer. Constant Sleep. Such Strong Wants. Trigger. Noodles&Co. A Cut Above. Braided. Framed Eggs. Indian Style. Fresh Fruit Mix. Screw Sold Out. Diamonds. Crystale. Leopard Print.
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Loneliness Sets Back In. Atmospheric Collection. Drawing Sessions. Zee. Crystal Clear. Galapagos Change Jar. Stripping The Poor. For The Greater Good. Three Year Secret: Revealed. Jobless No Longer. Ikea. Clean Cut. New Spaces. Xfinity. Warming Earth. Hidden Treasures. Growth. Rat Reunion Countdown. High Expectations. The Loneliest Of Rooms. Cleaning Out. Packing Up. Letters Sent. Down The Drain. The Need. Sleep Texting. Lonely Spaces. Old Mix. The Big Bang. The Nightly Five. Living In The Future. Leuchtturm 1917. Jaded Diamonds. Checks. Over Acheiver. Cleaning Up. Clearing Up. Magic Money. Raisin. Never Trust A Fox. In Years To Come. Black Diamonds. Rejuvenated Love. Looking Up. Nearing The End. On Task. Summer's Edge. Winding Down. Sertraline. Home Sweet Guest Bed. Delete The Evidence. Headphone Roadtrip. An Emotional Wreck. Chipped Nails. The Constant Ache. Newest Additions. Lack Of Life. Seasons i. Departure. Waiting On The Week. The Hunt Continues. Raku Firings. Jean Embraced Sleep. A Saturday Afternoon Breakfast. Finally Rested. Fake Weekend Plans. Complete Exhaustion. The Knight Bus. Warmer Outside Than In. An Old Friend's Understanding. Secret Formula En-route. Fake Eyelashes. Hollow Body. Cheating My Way Through Math Class. No Matter The Distance. Wasting Away In Bed. Constant Job Hunt. Red Kiln. Bed Head. Ibis. Sterling Silver. Reuniting With The Lion. Alopex. Housekeeping. Plasma. Refilling. A Gap In Time. Not So White. Geode. Black With Glitter. Night Life. Digging Up The Past To Replant The Future. Heartbreak. Reclaimed Past.
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Lookbook. Reclaimed Friendships. Tumblr Addict. Lend A Helping Hand. Realizing. Potential. Photobooth. Building Up. Ikea. Sharing Love. Sharing Secrets. Boca. Night Biking. Allowing Feet To Feet. Victorian Era. Sleepless Love. Late Night Dreamer. Fresh Starting. Night Rides. Overwhelming Distance. Lauck. Tattoo Plans. Azure. Clean. Tangled In The Sheets. Owl Feather. Sit Indian Style. FE. Tanned Hands. Original Sunflower Seeds. Yard Work. Comfortable Again. Similarities. Breathtaking. Weekend Sleepovers. Re-united. Figuring. Pescetarianism. Future Plans. Breaking Free. Salmon. New Friends. Oj. Music Matching The Mood. Maybe. Learning How To Trust. Re-building. Getting Lost In A Kiss. Contact. Constantly Sleeping. Writer’s Block. Breaking Old Habits. Creating New Ones. Pottery. Unexpected Friendship. Natural. Next Best. Sharing. Dealing. Nails. Wild. Conspiracy. Forgetting. Becoming Stronger. Saving. La Roux. Guardians Of Ga’hoole. Fitting Songs. Searching. Glow In The Dark Stars. Fresh Air. Saving. Far Away Dreams. Zoe. Solo Shoe. Holiday Feeling. Tired Eyes. Sophisticated. Stars On My Ceiling. Tuna Sandwich. Shush.
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Snuggly Warm. Getting Away. Limewire. Catchy. NYLON. School Nap. Chapstick. Z. Friendship Bracelet. Socks In The Bed. Classy. SocialVibe Bracelet. George Orwell. Playing The Field. Comforting. Constant Sleep. Sing In My Ear. Afternoon Nap. Quick Adjusting. ‘I Don’t Know What That Means’. Sneaky. Morning Kiss. Becoming. Relating. Journalism. Blackberry. Moths. Coffee. Hong Kong. Webcam. Owls. Skinny Jeans. Alfredo. Flats. Planning. Piercings. Ruehl. Cross-legged. Missing. Sweatpants. Feeling Good Enough. A|X. Jawline. Writing Letters. Sweet Talking Me. Organic. Catching My Eye. Poetry. Hugs From Behind. Pad Thai. Saying Goodnight While You Say Goodmorning.
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Popping My Elbows. BPH. Adrenaline Rush. Feeling Twitterpated. Coloring. Wishing. Dr. Pepper. Royal Blue. Always Being One Step Ahead. Completeness. Happiness. Painting A Picture. Having It All Clean. Feeling Nice. Hot Chocolate. Intimidation. Drinking From The Carton. Commenting A Stranger. White. Not Knowing What’s At The Top. Not Knowing What’s At The Bottom. Jesus Christ. Black And White Arctic Creatures. Grits. Being Warm But Not Hot. Anything Hair. Pokémon. Feeling Irreplaceable. Point Five Lead. Long Hair. Never Forgetting The Name. Little Kiss. Buying Gifts For The Loved. Loose Fitting Tee. Cleverness. Warm Summer Night. YouTube. Cooking With Someone. Drawing In My Sketchbook. Metal Pounding Through You. Complete Tiredness. Light Pink. Sally Hershberger. Starting Fresh. Olives. Just Being. Aquage. Holding Hands Becoming Second Nature. Club Energize. Rings. Earth Hour. Shopping With My Boy. Blueberries. Tanning. Being Cold But Not Feeling It. LiveLavaLive. Being A Harry Pottery Nerd. Finding The Unknown. Being Stubborn As A Mule. Pasta. McDonalds. Humming To Anything. Pretty Hands. White Hair. Baby Lotion. Skin Milk. Chi. Socks Touching No Socks. Slow Singing. Photoshop Drawing. Kiesha. Boy Smell. Playing With Gum. Candle Lit. Heavy Snow Falling Straight. Feeling Relief. Ashes & Snow. Big Hair. Creating Something. Listening. Watching. Sweet Tea. Holding Hands. Reading.
The Fox
I traveled the 70 mile trip to Bear River; long overdue. I finally had the chance to give my girl the resting place that she deserves. Replacing a stack of rocks, holding her place all these months, while the earth settled and then froze with winter, with a beautiful blooming Ruby Candle. Giving her a settled place, where she can finally rest easy without worry of prying paws.
There is so much life in that little park, it just feels so right, because I know that her little soul is running and playing with so many other creatures that have been taken back by the earth.
And after my last goodbyes were said, and my eyes had dried, I began the trip back home. The sky became dark, and my headlights were the only thing guiding me home, or so I thought. I don’t think I really understood how great the universe really is, until I saw that light in the sky. Taking my breath away, the most beautiful shooting star I’ve ever seen in my life, lit up the sky in front of me, and just burned and burned. My brain told me it was just a far away ball of fire, finally exploding, but my heart, my heart knew. Zoe. Finally able to rest easy, with that mountain of rocks finally lifted. She could finally be lifted. I, am finally able to feel closure between us. She will forever be with me, will forever be my little zee, and I won’t ever quit missing her, but it stinks a little less now. I know she’s okay; I’m okay.
